About me

After spending 3 weeks trying to write my ‘about me’ and getting ‘stuck’ after writing so much, I had the realisation, that like life, this can be simple and uncomplicated. So this is the ‘simple guide to me’ (trust me the ‘non-simple’ one was even longer and I was only halfway through!! ?)

We all have a defining moment (or many!!) in our lives where something has put us into a whole different ‘space’.

Mine was when I finally, unconditionally accepted, that I am truly my own creator and co-creator. No ‘Ifs and Buts’!! I’m it!! I’m the one totally responsible for everything I have experienced!!! The moment that I finally saw the ‘big picture’ of the illusion of life!!

Having this awareness also led me to understand that EVERYTHING that manifests in my physical has an ‘energy’ basis; that is - an emotion, cellular /DNA memory, old belief pattern.

I know now that when my body has an ache or pain, a cold, skin irritation, allergies etc etc, there is an underlying emotion/memory/belief pattern that has triggered a physical/emotional reaction. I can’t tell you how many thousands of dollars I have spent on chiropractors over the years for severe aches in my upper and lower back, which I now can clear myself just by going in to that pain, asking the question (metaphors are great here!!) to find out what is being held there, what is it a physical reaction to? Answer: an old belief pattern/fear. Listen to what you speak… e.g. ‘feel like I have a knife in my back’ (energetically you probably do!!); ‘just don’t feel myself today’ … you probably aren’t, you have taken on other’s energies or given your own away.. ‘I’m just beside myself’ … again, energetically you are out of your body! I could list so many things here.

Just one example of this is that over the last few weeks I have been experiencing my body as being ‘twisted/ribs compacted’. Previously it would have been a trip to the Chiropractor, but now I go into what I’m physically feeling and ask myself (do the metaphor!) ‘what am I twisted about?’; ‘What is happening in my life at the moment?’.. then I get the ‘ahhh’ moment!! Energetically in this case, old fears of persecution (which so many of us now are experiencing and ready to release!!) are rearing their heads!! As I move more into my own mastery/truth and work with my own divine gifts, those old fears of ‘hey, hang on, I remember that nearly every time we’ve done this 'before' we were persecuted.. d’oh!! Remember!!! Killed, burned, stoned, run out of town, come on, you must remember!!!! Let’s not do THIS again!!’ are coming up and my body’s reaction is that it is not in alignment with this and doesn’t want to ‘move forward face on into the ‘future’ so it goes out of alignment with what I want to do. So I then go in to that old fear and release it, as it no longer serves me. Just by having the awareness of what the fear is then brings my body back into alignment!! Awareness of the cause is the biggest step to integrating that old fear/belief pattern!! You’ve found that little ‘critter’ ‘hiding in there’ now you’ve ‘shone the light on it’ and it can no longer survive!! This method is how we are able to release all belief patterns that no longer serve us. Our beautiful body’s are working with us to let us know what we are ‘holding on to’. Bless them!!

Now I know that during all these years of 'experiences', I was 'filing them away' under many different categories; but not ONE category correctly named as- ‘own creations’!!! I had a huge category headed ‘Victim’ and oh my, that section was over-flowing with experiences!!! But surely none of those could possibly be MY own choices!! Why would I choose such things??!!!

Under that main heading of Victim there were sub-headings such as: ‘abuse’; ‘betrayal’; ‘abandonment’; ‘neglect’; ‘rejection’; ‘blame’; ‘shame’ .. etc etc, the list went on, and in every case I found a way to justify that it was ‘someone else’s fault’ e.g. my mother, my father, my siblings, my friends, my school-mates, that ‘bastard of a boyfriend/husband’….. need I say more, for I am sure you could quite easily add to these lists!!

Each time I ‘added’ another experience to one of those lists I put myself straight into ‘victim’ mode, a very very heavy energy that consumes us and blinds us to the truth!! It became an ‘excuse’ for who I was: anxious, nervous, frightened, wary, non-trusting, self-loathing, self-judging, worthless.. again I am sure you could add more to this list!!

So imagine when finally, and after hearing it from so many ‘wiser ones’ for so many years and thinking ‘yeah right!!’.. the penny dropped!! Talk about the ‘light bulb moment’ of all light-bulb moments!!!

My Version 1 of this section went into these experiences in more detail so no wonder I found it so hard to keep writing, for it seemed so ‘old’!! I am not that person anymore who experienced those things in that way and to try and write about them from the old perspective of ‘victim’ was not possible to do now, for I can now see the illusion of it all.

Yes, I AM absolutely, unconditionally the creator and co-creator of the sum of all my experiences, and not just in this ‘lifetime’.

This dimension of 3D is all about duality, so similar to going into an ice-cream shop with as much money as you needed to taste every ‘flavour’, why, with free will, wouldn’t we choose to experience both sides of every ‘experience’ that was available??

I know now that I have been the ‘abused’ and the ‘abuser’, ‘the betrayed’ and the ‘betrayer’ the ‘murdered’ and the ‘murderer’ and so on!! In each of those choices I experienced them to the ‘max’, no point in half doing it; you don’t jump off the roller coaster ride half way through do you?? (Even though we definitely wish we could at times, we still keep ‘riding it to the ‘end’ !)

So armed with this ‘all knowing’, that I chose each and every experience, I was able to go back and look at things from a perspective of truth!!

I was able to remove the ‘labels’, and thereby change the energy of all of my experiences and of course as this is all holographic - heal one heal all; yes this does mean ‘backwards’ and ‘forwards’ and ‘sideways’ and ‘up and down’!!

I was able to unconditionally send love and gratitude to each and every person EVER involved in my choices/creations. To those who loved me so deeply at a soul level that they were prepared to give me ‘what I chose to experience’, even though they knew that it would be so challenging in the 3D existence of ‘reality’!! Those beautiful people in each 'lifetime' gave me the greatest experiences/challenges, challenges that seemed so cruel and unloving at the time. I see now that those people at a soul level loved me the deepest!

How beautiful that ‘knowing’ was to experience! To be able to look at people in my life(lives) through the eyes of this new and true awareness; at those people who - ‘should have loved me’; whose ‘duty’ it was to ‘protect me’; who through those ‘old eyes of 3D’ I saw as my greatest ‘abusers’; ‘betrayers’ etc. To be able to see the truth in each and every one of those experiences was absolutely ‘freeing’!! To also see how I co-created with them for them to also experience their own ‘challenges’ and to be able to accept now that all was divinely perfect, was so wowsome!! (a word made up by me because I felt that ‘awesome’ had a heavy energy to it, to be in ‘awe’ of someone can be a belief that we feel we are ‘lesser’ than someone else, there’s no judgment in ‘wowsome!!:) )

This new awareness enabled me to release all judgment, not just of them but of MYSELF!!! For we truly are our own harshest judges!! We can ‘forgive’ others (or so we believe we have) but to ‘forgive’ ourselves is so hard. I can view EVERYTHING now without judgment, and I mean everything, not just in my life, but world-wide ‘issues’ and see the beauty and divinity of the perfectness of what others are choosing to experience in their lifetime(s). For it truly is the ‘greatest game/ride’ of all (I share a channel given to me: here ).

Don’t get me wrong! Before this awareness, like so many of you, I saw my life as such a struggle. I created very ‘challenging’ experiences: physically, emotionally and spiritually (energetically). Feeling there was no way out and many times longing to be ‘out of it’. Always looking for answers outside of myself! Having said that, only through those experiences/creations did I lead myself, stepping-stone (experience) by stepping-stone, to some of the most ‘amazing’ people who arrived in my life at the exact right moment (fate?? Haha - noooo!! my creation/co-creation)!! People who were the perfect person in that divine moment to help me to raise my own vibration. When I say ‘most amazing people’, I assure you, some of those people provided great ‘challenges/lessons’ for me, and they were the greatest of the great, for they were my ‘trampoline’, for without them, how would I have brought myself to that realisation of self creation??!! So it is easy for me now to send to them unconditional love, gratitude and honour. We all played our parts exactly as 'scripted' (by me with them and vice-versa).

As I peeled away the layers of the ‘onion’ (belief patterns), and it was a huge onion!!! I suddenly noticed that I was starting to bring in to my life many people who truly lived from their hearts!! How did this happen?? Because, as I slowly learned to love myself (and this is still a work in progress of course), then by the laws of the universe, I started to attract others of similar vibration!! Each and every person (and experience) in our lives is a reflection of our self-beliefs, yes I know it’s hard to believe, but it is absolutely true! The old saying, 'you get back what you put out' is so true!! So when someone ‘grates on your nerves’ or ‘P****s you off’, ask yourself ‘what is it in you that they are reflecting?’ For it is only then that you can peel away that layer/belief so that it no longer resonates from your own energy and therefore does not attract that experience to you again!! This is an ever evolving journey, for we still have the free choice to experience all that is available to us. It’s wonderful to be able to look ‘around’ at your friends, places and experiences and think WOW, there is soooo much beauty in my life, and to acknowledge that it is a reflection of your own self!! This is such a hard task for us to do, to love and acknowledge our own beauty!! If we didn’t have that within us we would never notice beauty in others/things!!! Remember, what you focus on is what you create!!

I will add on this site links to those people who have been facilitators in my ‘expansion and releasing’ of old self-beliefs. I ask that you sit and feel into the energy of each of these and feel if these might be in harmony with you in this moment. Remember, that we are all only ‘facilitators’ for others.. ‘self-healing’ is done by us and only us!! No-one else ‘heals’ us. It is only when we are truly ready to release that we bring a facilitator into our lives to guide us through that terrain; as you would hire a coach for sport or dancing etc. so too the facilitator can only show us a ‘way’, or hold the space energetically for us, they can’t do the ‘action/healing’ for us. Yes the old, ‘leading the horse’ thing!!

I received this channel which was so profound for me. Remember always to go beyond the words and feel into the energy of what we receive here.

The first six months of this year (2010) have been huge for me, (well all my life has been huge really) but ‘healing’ wise I have been able to release what could have taken lifetimes before, but because I now understand that these old patterns no longer serve me in this new energy, and in being of the self love that I am, I have allowed myself to peel those layers away at a ‘speedy’ rate. Pffft, if they don’t ‘serve me’ why the heck keep them hanging around!?? Remember we always do this ‘peeling away’ at the perfect rate for us, so do not go into judgment that you should be ‘further ahead’. I know this is not easy, for we are still human!! I remember saying 'bring it on' ... then having to go back and ask to maybe bring it on a wee bit slower thanks!!

We have to stop and breathe and bring ourselves back into this now moment. We have spent so much of our lives ‘in the future’ or ‘in the past’ and ‘out of our bodies’, and oh boy, I could have rented my body out over the years as vacant space, for I was so rarely in it - being so empathic as well and adding everyone else's energy to my own (but not knowing that until the last few years) my survival method was automatically to ‘get the heck out of there’!! We are so rarely in the now, that it requires us to ‘re-train’ in every moment to stay in this now moment!!

My greatest advice to you would be to always go into your own feelings and heart. No matter what or who comes up for you, trust your own knowing, for as one of the most wowsome people who I brought into my life reminds me often: ‘we already know the answers, we just don’t know the right questions!!’ I can honestly say that this wonderful person, Suzanne, was the first person in my life to give me unconditional love and honour, and I can assure you that created great challenges for me to receive, for to receive those gifts without ‘guilt’ meant looking at all my self-beliefs of why I believed ‘I didn’t deserve’ them!! This was the first step of this amazing journey of learning to love myself UNCONDITIONALLY!! To take the first steps in the understanding of Quantum Metaphysics (and still learning in every moment what that truly means).. changed my life!! Suzanne.

I have embedded in this site, and especially into this section, the energy of self-love and self-trust, so if you have been ‘drawn’ to this site and feel this energy stirring something in you, then you are now giving yourself the gift of becoming ‘unconditionally in love with YOU’. I honour your journey and encourage you to follow your truth to its wowsome destination of self-awareness, self-trust and self-love.

Whether you choose to use the services I offer, or whether you just touch on this space and seek further, know that you have put the ‘call’ out there for the most divine highest good person to come into your life in this moment to answer that call, and I send you joy, honour and blessings in your journey of learning to love yourself unconditionally. It is truly the most profound ‘trip’ you can take!!!

I am happy to discuss with you all the elements of my personal journey on a one-to-one basis, for to share is to help others know that it is safe to ‘let go’; for me it is a journey of amazing experiences given to myself by myself from the love of self and of those who have agreed to participate with me in these experiences.

Thank you for stopping by. Breathe deeply of the self love that it is your divine right to fully embrace.